So I've debated for a while....to post or not to post. Each night before bed a lot of these things have been running through my head so I have decided that I must share.
I love Sonic cokes I would rather eat nothing all day than go without a Sonic coke! The recent winter storm caused me to go without for 3 days and I almost completely lost it. I love everything Celtics and Lakers and for those of you who say I can't like both, you must get over yourself. I have come to love the boys on both of these teams and feel like I know them personally! I watch them whenever they are on TV and am very upset when I know there is a game on and can't watch it. I love to watch tv, a quote from a dear friend "I sit and watch my life pass by while others fulfill their dreams". I can't even begin to tell you all the shows that I watch in addition to NBA games that would be like an alcoholic telling you how many drinks they had today. I have the most amazing best friend, I know that God picked her out especially for me and I love her, she is my soul mate. I have never met anyone that has gotten me the way she does, she doesn't judge me, she accepts me and loves me just the way I am! I love to save money, it is one thing in my life that I can control at this point and it makes me very happy to do so. I prefer staying home all weekend because that is 2 days where I spend $0!!!
I despise the male race (with the exception of my bubby as far as I'm concerned he hung the moon). From past and current experience I have found them to be selfish, self-centered and they lack the ability to sympathize or empathize (I have a very good friend who shall remain nameless that is different and I love him-I hope you know who I'm talking about). And for those women who swear their man is perfect, amazing whatever you believe, you're in denial he will disappoint you and if the opportunity presents itself he will not think of you but himself. God made men and women very different and I continue to be disgusted pretty much on a daily basis by the things they say and do. I'm not into women now so please don't try to get that rumor started! I do enjoy looking at some men-from afar! My biggest pet peeve is when people ask me for advice and I am there to support them and they do the exact opposite! If you don't like my answer don't waste my time by asking me! If you're reading this and wondering if I'm talking about you, I probably am! There are a couple of people that I will never get tired of listening to their "issues" and that is because they are there for me in return. For all the others, stop telling me all of your problems I am not a licensed therapist and you don't heed my advice anyway so what is the point in wasting either of our time! Sorry that may have sounded rude and abrupt but I had to get that off my chest. For my entire life I have always been someone that even strangers feel comfortable confiding in. I can no longer bear all of your burdens! I am a person when I genuinely care about you I take on your burdens as well, I feel what you feel. I think that I may have some type of world record for the amount of times I've been used.......emotionally, monetarily, for personal gain, etc. My mother raised my sister and I to be great friends! And I just don't think that other people were raised that way (my soul mate came by this characteristic naturally). Beware, people will always disappoint you and never expect to get back what you give it just doesn't happen anymore and it is very sad but also very true. You teach people how to treat you (thank you Dr. Phil), learn from your mistakes! I don't want children, Phew!! There I said it and now the whole world knows! No matter how many people tell me "Oh but you are so good with kids". Yes I am good with kids that I can send home! Patience is not my virtue (ask my poor mother) and I have gotten better if those who know me can believe that. Babies are really cute don't get me wrong, if they stayed that way I might consider having one. I have recently heard (around my workplace) of kids being sick, throwing up and snotting on them, having to miss work to stay home (we only have so many days off as it is), expenses, getting in trouble at school, fighting, throwing fits and these are the young ones! I can't handle the idea of giving my kids the keys to my car when they are 16! Are you kidding me! Pregnancy, Drugs, Alcohol---You can raise your kids in church and be the best role model you can be and they still go astray! There are no guarantees in this life and you all know I would get a bad seed!!! So that is my kid rant-none for me thanks! It is very hard for me to be genuinely happy for all of these people that are getting married and having kids......I get it you're happy well I'm not and am so incredibly tired of having it rubbed in my face every day. My biggest fear is being alone forever and maybe it is my biggest fear because I know it will come to fruition. I am very good at putting up a front (I have become very good at it over the past 3 or so years) and truth be told, I'm not! I hate family gatherings, always wondering what is going through their minds "When are you getting married?, etc" Really? Do you need to ask me that? I'm tired of being the only single one it's not an acceptable progression of things for Oklahomans. I am 28 years old and single it's almost like a cardinal sin in Oklahoma and add the fact that I don't want kids to that? I should be burned at the stake! Okay enough of my rants for today there are more but this will be all for now!
